he’s gone

I have put your books and various other things in the post to you - I would appreciate getting my cd’s and wine from you at your convenience
 
the absolute hate and contempt for me in your eyes this morning was quite something and for the first time ever I was actually frightened by you
 
I had been told that you had this side but until now I had never seen or believed it - I saw only good and wonderful things in you and that was my mistake apparently
 
now that I have literally picked myself up from the floor and stopped crying I can see that this is for the best; in fact I should have drop-kicked you out of my life 2 1/2 years ago -  the mental and physical toll this has had on me really hasn’t been worth it
 
but I didn’t - fact is I adored you, likely still do, and just couldn’t bear the thought of not having you in my life in whatever capacity
 
that was my mistake and now I have to live with the consequences of that
 
and congratulations - you have successfully rid yourself of two problems:  me and the puppy
 
but don’t lose any sleep over it, not that you would - both of us will be better off without you
 
this is the last you will hear from me, other than the parcel with your things that are on their way to you - I leave it to you if you want to call or see me
 
I do wish good things for you and hope that you are able to find happiness somewhere - obviously it won’t be with me

I just hit the “send” button - yup, it’s been a fun, fun day here at Casa Casey … but Scout?  she is fabulous!

 

puppy update

last we spoke someone had decided that he had “made a mistake” and was not keeping the puppy

before he left on Wednesday I told him not to make the decision right away, to take a few days to think about it and then re-evaluate

so he did - when he got back to town Friday night he came by and took her home with him

(there was a bit of a scene that occurred with me, having been completely blindsided by him bringing his son along, something I did not know was going to happen, and I might have been a bit bitchy as a result - suffice to say that it was truly awful)

he called Saturday afternoon to arrange a playdate with Maggie and to update me on puppy status - he was glowing about her and how fabulous she is and how great she was doing, etc.

upshot?  he was keeping her

I couldn’t join them on the playdate but told him to feel free to come up and take Maggie out for a bit of a romp - which worked for me, too, as I was going out and this way the princess got out again and he could feed her, etc.

so you can imagine my surprise when, a few hours later, while I was en route to a friend’s b-day bbq, he called to say that he had had a long talk with his son and that they had decided that they were NOT going to keep the puppy and that she was mine if I wanted her

&^%$###$@!!!!!!!

after telling him that I really couldn’t discuss ths right now, he went on to tell me that he woudl keep her for the weekend and bring her to me Monday morning

again, &^%$@!!!!!!!!

so I went out and proceeded to drink way too much gin, eat way too little food and got my sorry little self home way too late

and I may have sent a drunken text message or two eight

maybe

but I digress, back to the puppy - we talked again this morning, this time at length and in more detail and while having a puppy right now, especially given the fact that I am starting a new job Tuesday morning, is NOT in the plans, she is coming to me tomorrow morning

we still have lots to talk about and sort through, not the least of which being the fact that this puppy seems to be the perfect metaphor for our relationship (the whole loves the idea of the puppy but not the reality of her, rushing in to things without thinking or caring about the consequences, wanting her only when it is convenient for him, etc.)

but in the meantime what I know is this:  a new little puppy is joining our family and her name will be Scout

photos to follow, I promise …

 

disappointed? absolutely

so we picked up the puppy on Saturday afternoon and fell in love instantly!  she has been staying with me a lot since then and I have to say she is quite an amazing little puppy - considering that she was rescued off a reserve a few weeks ago, flown in from Calgary Thursday night and brought to the mainland on the ferry Saturday afternoon, she is settling in just fine

as far as I am concerned anyway

the fact that I am off this week has worked out well in terms of adjustment time for the little one - she hung out with Maggie and me Saturday night, the 5 of us (Maggie, Logan, my friend, his son and me) went for a long walk on Sunday and she has been dropped of with me early each morning and picked up after work in the evening each day this week

we three have gone on long walks, learned to use a leash, had coffee, played with all sorts of other dogs and people and have been having a perfectly wonderful time

again, she is an amazing little puppy, but we must remember that she is a PUPPY 

this morning my friend dropped her off and she is staying with me until Friday as my friend has business out of town - and then he dropped the bomb:

“I’ve made a mistake”

he has decided not to keep her and now we have to find her a new home

he has a long list of resons, not least of which is that he is claiming to be “allergic” to her - itchy, swollen hands and arms, hives, etc.

he is NOT allergic to the dog - he is  allergic to commitment and I want to strangle him

the speech he gave about why he can’t keep her was eerily similar to that which he gave me the first time he broke my heart

in the meantime, the little love is with me and will remain with me until we find her a new home ( you know I want to keep her)

I see an absolutely amazing birthday present in my sister’s future …

 

last day

Today is my last day at my current job and I am feeling rather conflicted - I’m not leaving because I hate my job or the people I work with or the work I am doing; an amazing opportunity came my way and so I took it. 

Being the kind of person I am I have been working extra hard, making sure that everything is in perfect order for when I leave.  Also, the reality that I am indeed leaving has hit management and so my workload has been rather HUGE, getting all loose ends tied up, getting all information from my wee brain, etc. so I haven’t even had time to think about the new job.

This time I have taken a week in between gigs to next week will be spent breathing.  It’s kinda weird, actually - next week I am technically not employed by ANYONE.  What a nice feeling (though I suspect it would not be so nice if a. I didn’t have a stockpile of vacation pay to live on and b. didn’t know that it was only for the one week)

so it’s with rather mixed emotions that I am leaving one adventure and embarking on another

I am sure there is a panic attack in my future …

Happy Friday!!

 

I know it’s wrong

but I just can’t help myself — I replied to “JJ” last night thusly:

“you made it public, so yes it is my business

and while I may well be an idiot in some instances, this is not one of them
 
in any event, you have taken down your ads so can assume that other people have discovered what you are up to”

her witty retort?  (and I know it’s a “her” and that her name is “Joyce”):

“Shut up, idiot!!!”

I am taking some sort of perverse pleasure in this, though should probably stop - the good news is that all of their ads posted on the site have been taken down, though I have no idea what has happened to the puppies

and speaking of puppies, meet Gretel

if all goes according to plan, we will be picking her up and bringing her home on Saturday

 

again, people pretty much suck

I think I have mentioned that I am helping a friend look for a dog - older, female, non-shedding, ”rescue” in case anyone knows of any looking for a fabulous new home.  To that end I check out the humane society, rescue society, etc. websites pretty regularly. 

This morning I came across the following ad posted on www.kijiji.ca:  oops, made a mistake (ok, so maybe I made up the tile, but you get the gist). 

Once I got over the unbelievably poor grammar and spelling, not to mention on what planet is the dog in the photographs a Husky, I focused on the nature of the ad itself.  “Yeah, we had a dog but then decided to move and couldn’t take the dog with us so we sold it and now we have decided that yeah, we really do love the dog and are not moving so, like could we have it back?  Because we are really good people and don’t look at pets as being dispoable or anything.”

So I did some investigating (and before you get impressed with my Nancy Drew/Trixie Belden sleuthing skills, there is a function that shows you all other ads posted by the same person) and found the following:

4 puppies for sale

chihuahua puppies

Obviously these people are puppy brokers and there is a very special place in hell waiting just for them.

Happy Friday one and all!

UPDATE:  I couldn’t help myself and sent the above mentioned puppy broker my thoughts on what he/she/they were doing.  Imagine my surprise when I  received a reply with a legit email address:

joycellu@hotmail.com to me:
“This is not your business. OK? Shut up. Are you idiot???”

I may well be an idiot in some instances.  This is not one of them.

 

apologies in advance for the profanity

“an unfortunate consequence of fucking down”*

read that line this morning on the commute to work and for whatever reason it struck me as rather brilliant

 

 

*Michael Dibdin, A Long Finish

 

men: what I’ve learned*

1.  they cannot read your mind (shocking, I know, but true) thus, if you want something or want them to KNOW something, you must tell them. verbally - ladies, this is a good time to USE. YOUR. WORDS.

2.  actually saying “thank you” works wonders - again, look to no. 1 - they need to be told

3.  needing them vs. being “needy” is a huge distinction - that list of chores that need doing that only they can do? works a treat for their egos and makes them feel good.  the other?  not so much - in fact often the very opposite

4.  flattery is a good thing; within reason of course

5.  flirting in front of them with another is not (contrary to what romantic comedies would have us believe, this is not cute)

6.  generally speaking, being tired is just that - being TIRED (as opposed to bored, over, done, etc)

7.  if they start to leave stuff at your house, stuff like tools, books, cd’s, cufflinks, etc. that is a good thing

8. saying “no” is also a very good thing - but be sure you mean it and can stand behind it

I know most lists should have 10 points but this one doesn’t - guess that means I have so much more to learn

 

*  yes, this may be a user-specific list, but there are some pretty solid truths that work across the board …

 

suivant, next!

the anxiety Saturday was well worth it - Montreal 5 Boston ZERO

 

life update

in addition to holding my breath during the past few hocky games - game 7 tonight GO HABS GO!!!! - I have been busy doing things like reading some fabulous books, My Sister’s Keeper and Man of my Dreams among them, listening to some great new music, Moby’s Last Night and Panic at the Disco’s Pretty, Odd are in high rotation on the iPod oh, and interviewing for a new job

the offer came in late Friday and I accepted and I start May 20 

it was a tough decision (not really) and I am very excited (not to mention panic-stricken and guilt-laden) - suffice to say that it was  a no-brainer of a decision (more $$, more vaca and a stake in all new deals) and I am absolutely thrilled (albeit somewhat terrified) about it

Happy Monday!